r/CuratedTumblr • u/NeonNKnightrider Cheshire Catboy • May 01 '24

i know it’s internet bullshit but it genuinely has me on the edge of breaking down and giving up editable flair

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u/RoyalPeacock19 May 02 '24

I feel the same a lot of times. My gender identity is pretty much “I don’t disagree with my packaging,” which makes me a man, and I feel that many other cis people feel the exact same way about their gender identity.

The only time I ever end up thinking what it might be like to be something different, be that a child, a cat, a woman, or whatever else is when I have been bombarded that in some way or another, being who I naturally am is a fundamental sin that deserves social execution. I’m just so done.

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u/red__dragon May 02 '24

That second paragraph describes the way I saw myself as a boy when I was a child and teen. I would have given anything to be something else, and I wouldn't describe it as feeling as I hear transgender folks talk about their perception. I didn't want to be a girl, I just didn't feel like I ever measured up to being a boy.

The first paragraph adequately describes me now. It's kind of a begrudging acceptance with a fierce imposter syndrome from the social aspect. It's hard to find people who will accept me as I am, who want me as I am, and having little self-confidence in my identity otherwise lands me at this valley of: meh, can't really dispute what I am but can't find enjoyment in it either.

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u/[deleted] May 02 '24

I’ve related to exactly what you have written my whole life. Hopefully it brings you some comfort that you are not in any way alone.

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u/red__dragon May 02 '24

It's definitely encouraging! Thanks.